healing

"Sometimes, when you heal, your body gets all better.

Infections leave. Wounds disappear.
You feel happier. Brighter. More positive.
Sometimes, healing looks very, very different.
An infection stays. An old pain resurfaces.
You don't feel 'healed' at all. You feel worse than ever!
Powerful and uncomfortable feelings emerge!
Rage. Deep sorrow. Terrors you never knew were in you!
(Ah, but they were, friend, they were...)
This is healing, too. This falling apart.
The image of 'healing' has been shattered.
The image was false.
Trust. Trust the energies that are moving through you now.
You may feel 'worse', yes, but you are getting better at living.
You are experiencing a deeper kind of healing,
one which doesn't match the mind's fantasies.
This is a reintegration. A death... and a rebirth.
Darkness emerging into light.
All the bits you ran away from,
coming to you now
for love and acceptance.
Throw away your childhood fantasies of healing.
Fall apart. Lose the future.
Die into the Now.
Break apart for love.
You are whole, even though
your dreams have been shattered.
This is true healing, then:
Recontacting the Wholeness that you are." 

~ Jeff Foster

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